I’ve been so neglectful of my blog lately! These music posts were ones I did all at once a week or so ago, and I meant for them to be in addition to my regular posts. Unfortunately, I have even less than usual to talk about.
I’m in a holding pattern with my pregnancy…at that stage where you’re just kind of waiting to see if the baby is healthy at the major ultrasound. And of course there’s all of the girl or boy anticipation. I’m tired of people asking what we’re having. I don’t really get that. It seems to me that your first question would be asking how I’m doing, or if the baby is healthy. I spent some time with my neighbor this morning and she’s probably the first person I’ve encountered in weeks who hasn’t asked if we know the sex yet! It was nice. And truly, I just don’t care. If God himself came down and told me I could pick one or the other, I’d choose a girl just to even things up a little bit. But since it’s out of my control it is a non-issue. It will be what it will be, and as long as we have a healthy baby we couldn’t be happier. (And please don’t feel like it’s not OK to ask…it is, but since I don’t know yet, it’s a little bit like getting a phone call every day asking if you’ve gone into labor or had that baby yet. Mildly annoying, but you know it’s just because people care and are interested!) I think my perspective is different from most because I’ve learned through my own experience and that of others that a healthy baby or safe pregnancy are not always guaranteed. So I probably worry more about that than the average person. Though I would like to know if I can call this baby he or she…and picking out a name would be nice, too! We did start a registry this week, more as a checklist for me than anything else, so I know what I need to get. With so much time between our 1st and 3rd, we’ve had to get rid of some things that are essential, like the car seat that was expired. (Yes, they do expire…check yours!)
And of course our money situation is starting to worry me. My husband has now been unemployed for almost 2.5 months and our meager savings is quickly drying up. We absolutely cannot afford to move, and he doesn’t have any guaranteed customers yet. He has had several meetings scheduled, but no definite contracts yet. We’re hopeful for this to happen soon, but even then it may take a couple of months to see income. Until then, we’re doing what we can to save money where we can but I’m getting scared. I’d go get a job, but now that I’m pretty obviously pregnant, nobody seems to want to hire me. I understand why not, but we’re in a really scary place right now and even a small income would benefit us greatly!
And then there’s the whole back thing, which has prevented me from spending much time at the computer. It’s still pretty painful, and even though I’ve gotten a wonderful aromatherapy heating pad (can’t recommend it enough!) I have to limit my time with it because of my pregnancy. And I can’t take Advil or any other anti-inflammatory type drug, so I’ve mainly had to grin and bear it. There is some improvement, but right now it’s just painful to sit here, so I avoid it.
So between the uneventfulness, the worry, and the pain, I have little to talk about. Hopefully this week will provide some blog fodder. Until then, prayers and good thoughts for a healthy baby at our ultrasound on September 2 and our financial situation are much appreciated. Watch this space for baby news the day after Labor Day!