Life right now is chaotic, scary, exciting, and a million other adjectives. I’m at a crossroads in my life…having to make decisions about where my future lies and whether I need to change directions. And so this blog has kind of been at a crossroads, too. I don’t remember now why I started it or what I hoped to accomplish…and I’m not sure I know now what I want it to be. It has kind of been a place for me to vent and share my fears but suddenly I’m not comfortable doing that. I’m no longer as anonymous as I’d like to be and because of that, I’m afraid that I will be judged by the things I write in my lowest lows and highest highs. Most people don’t share those moments with the whole wide world for a reason!
So I’m left with the question of what this space is going to be. Recipes? Stories about my kids? Money saving tips? I never wanted to be a generic “mommy blogger” but I feel like that’s kind the direction I’m headed. And to be honest, I’m so short on time these days that it sometimes feels like a chore just to get over here and try to write something…because those highs and lows are usually the impetus to come and post. To get out my stress, to get out my excitement, to let go of the feelings that are keeping me up at night or bouncing around in my head and preventing me from concentrating on my homework or the article I need to write. Unfortunately, this blog can’t be my therapy any more. I’m sad about that, but I feel freed in simply making this decision.
Bear with me as I try to straighten it all out and figure out where I’m going. Not only with this blog, but also in life. There are good things happening that spell success for me in a place I never expected to be. Real estate is picking up and that means good things for us financially (I hope!) so I am seeing the sun coming up on what has been a very dark time for my family. Everything is still in the maybe stage, but there are a lot more maybes out there than nos (noes?) right now. I am very optimistic about that aspect of life!
So let’s head down this new road and see where it goes. I really hope you’ll join me on the journey!
