I am the Mama

Let’s see how long my computer stays up…it keeps rebooting itself so I’ve had it turned off for a few days in hopes that it would magically fix itself!  I’ve had laptop access since my husband has been in a training class for a part time job, but it doesn’t have PhotoShop or any of my other special programs so it’s not ideal when I need to do anything other than use the internet.

So…coffee.  I am trying desperately to break my Mountain Dew addiction.  The amount of sugar in one can is some ridiculously high number…I think my husband said 14 teaspoons.  He may be off a little bit (one search I did said 11.5 teaspoons) but I know it’s high.  And it’s not real sugar.  It’s high fructose corn syrup which I increasingly believe is really, really bad stuff.  Plus people say it causes kidney stones and it’s making it harder for me to lose weight.

But the caffeine!  I need it.  Popping open that can of Mountain Dew is the only thing that gets me through some days.  I use it like an alcoholic uses booze…when the going gets tough, that caffeine and sugar high is only moments away.  But again, the kidney stones, the HFCS, the fatness.  Yuck.

This morning I found myself using my cute little Senseo to make a cup of coffee, a habit I’m trying to get into so I can break the other one.  I added my white chocolate mocha creamer and sugar (Yes, I know…I’ll work on that after I break the Mtn. Dew addiction.  It’s still nowhere near the amount of sugar as in a soda.) and found myself thinking about our honeymoon.  That was the first time I ever enjoyed coffee.  We were at Sandals Inn in Jamaica and I ordered coffee with my breakfast because I hadn’t gotten a lot of sleep the night before (Get your mind out of the gutter!  Our flight in was late!) and really needed to get woken up.  To this day, that is the best coffee I have ever tasted.  It came from the Blue Mountains in Jamaica and was absolutely delicious.  So this morning, I got the bright idea to see if I could find some on the internet.  Maybe for a Father’s Day surprise, since my husband loved it, too.  We can’t afford a second honeymoon or even 1 night away, so I thought it would be an inexpensive way to have a mini vacation every morning.

Haha.  Hahahahahahahahaha!  A quick search told me that it was ridiculously expensive and hard to find.  For the price of a pound of this coffee, I could get several pounds of meat.  And by several, I mean 10+.  Of the most expensive steak in the grocery store.  Really.  When I haven’t had a really good steak in nearly 2 years because it’s an irresponsible waste of money, this seems like a monumentally bad idea.  So much for that idea.  It would almost be cheaper to fly to Jamaica, pay for a night at a hotel just to get coffee, and fly home.  And that would be much more fun, in my opinion.

Back to square one.  At least I have my white chocolate mocha creamer.  And my caramel macchiato creamer, which is delicious in french vanilla flavored coffee.  I’ll have to make do with those splurges for now.  But someday…someday I will go back to Jamaica.  With my husband.  And we’ll drink coffee.  And talk about something other than our children and lack of money while we drink it.  Right now, in this moment, that sounds like the best thing ever.

Hooray!  My computer stayed up!  Do I dare attempt some photo editing?

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