I am the Mama

I am just about the world’s worst mom.  Because I avoid leaving the house with my 2 year old unless I have the backup of another adult.  I’m not kidding.  Inevitably when I take him out by myself, one or both of us ends up crying or having a total meltdown before my errands are done.  Now that my husband is home most of the time, I’m lucky enough that I usually have the luxury of either leaving the little boy at home or bringing the grown-up boy with me to help!

But this morning did not start out well.  My husband had a meeting downtown (fingers crossed that this brings in some work for him!) and as it turned out, Colin woke up right as he was leaving.  This is never a pretty scene…whenever Daddy leaves it means a total and complete screaming fit with lots of “I want a tiss!” even if Daddy kissed him before he left, or “I want Daddy!” or “I want to go!”  This time it was of the “I want to go!” variety so I asked him if he wanted to go somewhere with me.  He nodded a pitiful “yes” so I got us both dressed and we headed out.

I decided to go to Fabulous finds and see if they still had the total body pillow Emily mentioned in a comment, but they didn’t.  They did, however, have a ton of toys and I bought something small to avoid the meltdown that I knew would come when I tried to walk out of there empty-handed.  (Please don’t judge me…I am normally not such a pushover.  But I really am at my limit physically with this pregnancy and the last thing I wanted to do was have to carry a screaming toddler back out to the car.)  This small concession worked and we got out of there without any crying!  I then headed home, only to turn around about a quarter mile from the house because I decided I needed a Bojangle’s chicken biscuit.  Except for some whining from the backseat when I got my biscuit, it was a very successful outing overall.

So, “I did it!”  All by myself and with no tears or meltdowns.  I’m not going to make this a habit, though…

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