I’ve struggled mightily with my faith over the last few years. I’ve been making efforts this year to rebuild my trust in God and rediscover my spirituality. I find my perspective has changed now that I am older and have children, but I am making good progress. So when I get something stuck in my head and can’t get it out I start to wonder if there’s more at play.

Yesterday while perusing my guilty pleasure (Celebrity Baby Blog) I ran across the story of Audrey Caroline. I spent about an hour reading the blog, most of the time with tears streaming down my face, completely unable to even fathom the situation this family is facing with their unborn baby girl. And then, as I got deeper into the story, I see that Audrey was born on April 7, which is my wedding anniversary and a very special date to me for many reasons. She lived for a little over 2 hours and then God took her home.

Friday, a video was posted to the blog that is so powerful and I can’t get it out of my head. It contains images of her family both before and after her birth, celebrating this baby girl who would never get the chance to grow up. The song that accompanies the photos is called I Will Carry You and was written by her parents and a friend.

Of all the photos, the one that is most powerful to me is the one 57 seconds in, of Audrey’s 3 sisters sitting in front of Cinderella’s castle with pink mouse ears on. To their right is another set of pink mouse ears on the ground. It is beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time.

I feel like something led me to their blog. I hadn’t visited CBB in a while and on the day I did, there was the link to the blog and the video right at the top. What pushed me to visit that day? I don’t know. But I feel like God is speaking to me, trying to show me the grace and faith this family has demonstrated in the face of the one thing that is my worst nightmare. And I feel compelled to share the story and video here so other people can see it as well.